貝多芬病毒 天鵝夢 |베토벤바이러스 거위의꿈

Nice song... though I still don't understand Korean...



Watched this drama because 張根碩 is in there... omg... 那個太悲情 la... (Too much suffering... 8-O 8-X)

Another dream of mine

One day... I wanna have a share of BRK-A.... getting me drooling as if I were staring at my husband...

おいしい... sort of like... thems good eat... 8-O lol

My husband finally back to Taiwan

My husband is finally here....

Don't know what them women around were harassing him for... lol

Gotta say though... don't like this hair style of his...

(Grumpy old hen like me can also dream... ok... 8-O lol)

CTV News-Jang Geun Suk in Taiwan

Ain't no nothing wrong with you

One day, I went asking some information about the protection of people with disability in Taiwan at work place... for instance... how do I prove to people that I am physically disabled this way and blah blah blah.... A hard question for me to ask.
I went home and told my mom about the discussion... and... I saw her face....

From then on and especially later that night, she tried so hard to prove to me or to convince me that everything is fine with me and I am not disabled.

I then realized that... "she is going through this phase of denial... maybe she doesn't even know..."

She has difficulties accepting the fact that... this daughter of her has any kind of... let's put it this way... health problem... or... maybe my father as well...

So, she went on the entire time at the dining table and afterwards telling me that I am not disabled and so on...

Finally, I could not stand it any more...

"Stop it.  Stop it.  Please!

Accept it and acknowledge it.  Stop pretending it is all fine and there is nothing I can't do (no intent for double negative to emphasize).

That is not what I need.

What I need is for you to accept it.

Let's accept it and say... well... this is the reality now and where do I go from here.

Set this point as the baseline and each inch I gain is an inch gain."

I guess... it will never be easy for any parent to accept anything not so perfect happening to their children...

Later, I thought... must be hard to deal with people as such... what exactly do I expect them to say?

And, I thought of a comment a friend of mine once made... something like this...

"I now it is not perfect (accepting the fact) but you are making your best effort (stating the fact) and you seem to be doing fine."

Some days you do go into them moments and asking God why it is me and.. blah blah blah... and this is the point when you go watch the drama on TNT since, mostly likely, their drama is far more dramatic and entertaining... lol

Or go check out a clip as such... romantic, good ending and possibly a younger and better looking character in the leading role... 8-O lol



Yet, despite the good will... "Ain't no nothing wrong with ya?"  8-O

A lot of things wrong.... dear... let me break the news to you...

Yet, I know there are many things I could do though I am still trying to right them wrongs if possible as well.  8-O lol

Don't know whether this is how anyone else deals... this is how I deal.

And... no better way this guys once had it put... "You are high maintenance..."

I didn't understand it then... finally now... 8-O lol

Drama

Been having thoughts about drama in the back of my mind...

From 原来是美男, 張根碩 to drama there...

See... this is drama and traumatizing at times...

So romantic.....


How magical!



Unfortunately, life is not a 16- or 18-episode-long drama and I am no high 人氣 pop singer in my teenage.... Neither am I da Kong Fu hustler...

My life mostly is like... not much happening but mistakes could still be found.... (a viewer of this clip reminded me that the bridge is 35673 M, not KM-- a mistake I made in the description.)



If only could be relaxing like this... 8-O lol



So...

Drama...

If one thing I have been trying to learn is to de-dramatize if not de-traumatize for the benefit of my mind, if not life, how well have I faired so far?

To be honest, can't tell... especially when...

First... how do I assess my learning?

What are the tasks to be learned and what are the benchmarks?

Second... what exactly am I learning or what constitutes my aka de-dramatization?

Third and, perhaps, most important.. is there anything true about the plausible benefits since, if the benefits don't exist, there is not even any point to entertain the first and second points.

Regardless, (memory dump in process 8-O lol), one thing I could say... I tried and am still trying my best.... all else... so they say... 歡喜就好 (well... that last posting in Down with Meds remains to be a bit traumatic to me... de-dramatize and de traumatize... dumping dumping even more memory... 8-O lol 8-X)

Flower eating.... 花癡

One of the best depiction of Flower eating.... 花吃(癡)....

For a minute... thought... oops... ain't da moi.. then I shall be flower eating 歐巴桑? lol

From.. 장근석 張根碩 Schema? 8-O

Even though I am an 歐巴桑 almost old enough to be the mama of this boy 張根碩...

How cute.... かわいい /ka-wa-ii/....  :-D

Came across this clip online showing this beau garçon in different stages...



Ain't quite right.... あちま getting ショト... 阿達媽getting 秀逗... or my head getting short-circuited... or, the generation of cognitive dissonances in process...

Apparently... he should be...



Speaking of the power of script or simply schema....

Then... I came across the following...



Oh... No!!!

and...



No ..no... no.... "Why are you doing it to me?  :'-O"

Speaking of... "演戲的是瘋子，看戲的是傻子"..... sort of like... those who act are crazy and those who watch are fools...

張根碩 | Jang Geun Suk | 장근석 on facebook?

Been busy working on that ubuntu machine that I don't even have the time to check out some more info about my あなた 張根碩... (by the way, I assume this あなた (a-na-ta) is the same 阿哪達 that we say in Taiwan 8-O lol)..

Just as stupid does stupid does...

Fans gotta do what fans do as well...

So I decided to check out whether my あなた 張根碩 has a facebook account... with the keyword of 장근석 returned over 300 hits....

Which one is or ones are the real 張根碩 | Jang Geun Suk | 장근석? 8-O lol

http://www.facebook.com/pages/zhang-gen-xi-Jang-Geun-Suk-jang-geunseog/175231596909

The utility of Butterness

Showed this friend of mine a picture of 張根碩...

The immediate response of this old friend is...

"How butter!"

Insinuating... also... you are too old for this.... 8-O lol

To be honest... ya... da beau boy... is pretty butter.... lol

Yet, so what?

Can't a grumpy old hen like a buttery boy?

Come to think about it... if not because of this pretty boy, I would not have realized the existence of this block, and would not have been able to get the blockage unblocked....

Something I would have been unable to imagine otherwise.... 8-O lol

Another picture of 張根碩 to share with ya....

Fan club

I came across the official website of 張根碩 and thought...

Never join the fan club of anything in my life... Why not?

As seen on TV...

Ended up, me no understand Korean and, for reasons unknown, I kept on clicking on "Join" but nothing happens...

Think about it... 夠三八了吧?  8-O lol

So young 8-O

Although I am sitting at home... trying to recover from my bronchitis... being a 很賢慧的英英美代子... (essentially, idling at home)...

I seems to be very busy everyday... so busy that mama would keep on reminding me... "You know you have to stand up and walk around sometimes!"

Since I did not even have a chance to check out anything 張根碩 related yesterday, I decided to google up some of his pictures...


Uhmmm.... even fans have their duties...

So I encounter this picture...

OMG... so young tooth (幼齒) though cute!

Now it really makes me feel like... "cradle robbing"... 8-O lol

On a second thought, come on... I was also once-upon-a-time young tooth like this before... 8-O lol

Another first time in my life...

Brother-in-law went to Sogo to buy the DVD and CD of "原来是美男"... and gave me the poster that came with the package.

I was overjoyed and was going to put the poster up by my bed!

My sister could not understand...

"I have also watched a few episodes of it on and off... How can you be so addicted or obsessed with it?"

Mama came home later and I also told her about putting the poster up with the same response my sister had....

"How could you be doing this at this age?

So I replied...

"童年失歡... since I have never done anything like this in my younger years, might as well do it now I have a chance....  Just like, you never took me to McDonald's when I was young, gotta go there when I could to make up the lost happiness of childhood..." 8-O lol

 (And, too be honest, there was no McDonald's in Taiwan when I was young anyway... Didn't come in until when I was in high school, I think.... )

Earlier tonight, out of nowhere, mama reminded me... "Aren't you going to put the posters up?"

So I showed her the poster of 張根碩....

So she said... "Is that a woman?"

"No!  That is a very beautiful boy!"

After I put both posters up, at the only location allowed by my mom, I called her in to take a look....

So commented mama... "A girl and a boy?"

"No!  Two beautiful boys!"

The whole thing reminds me of the following clip... with me the auntie in the storyline....



http://tv.sohu.com/20100430/n271855875.shtml#1580 (starting at 26:19 ending around 29:00)



Such marks one benchmark of my life... I put posters of up... posters of nice looking actors from an idol drama... as seen on TV.... 8-O lol

Garden 5

I came across this commercial with Jang Keun Suk 張根碩 and Park Shin Hye in it...

As I was watching this commercial...

I thought... Garden 5?

Sounds familiar...

Then, the light ball went off... OMG... I was also in Garden 5 during my stay in Korea.... I might have been to the places they were showing in this commercial except for... it was not until after I left Korea did I came across this Korean drama and heard of the man 张根硕...

It apparently is a new shopping complex in Songpa, which just opened in June... According to some info from Wikipedia, it is now the largest shopping mall in Asia... (Don't know whether it is true or not...)

Getting there was really easy... if by subway, get off subway line 8 at the Jangji station (장지역, 長旨).

The first question that came to my mind when arriving at Garden 5 was... "There are only 4 buildings in total... Where is the 5th?"

My Korean friend had no idea either....

Since shopping has never been my kind of thing, Garden 5 would have been filtered out automatically... except for... my friend had some time that day and was going to take her son to Garden 5... and... since she asked, I followed.  Thank about it... well... going to the department stores with Koreans... could be accounted as some pretty genuine Korean experience... as good as visiting places like Namsangol Hanok Village (남산골한옥마을 or 南山韓屋) ...  I guess... 8-O lol

After googling around for the entire afternoon, I still could not find much info about Garden 5 except for the following article written at the end of 2009... The Garden 5 development is slow to progress  (Looking back... when walking around, we did still find a whole lot of empty spaces...) 

One thing I would say is that... this could also be the shoe-lovers' paradise...  following is a picture of the multi-floor shoe department...

You see the sign on the shelf with a telephone number?

Apparently, because there are not so many people around, the shop keeper has gone somewhere else.  This posting tells people that... this is my cell number... give me a call if you need some help... (Never seen things like this before... 8-O lol)

Shoe department in Garden 5

An outdoor shop at Garden 5.. found a bag with NYPD on it

粉絲症候群 fensi or Fans syndrome

So, in addition to bronchitis, I also came back to Taipei with this disorder called Fensi syndrome (Fans syndrome)...

For days, I applied the flooding technique to myself...

Listening to 어떡하죠 如何是好 What should I do thousands of times a day... staring at my husband's picture millions of times.... until... now... finally... less feverish.... 8-O lol

The following song.. Good Bye by 张根硕



어떡하죠 바라만 보네요 我该怎么做 只能注视着你
짧은 인사조차 건낼수가 없네요 甚至不能简短问候
시리도록 차가운 내손잡아 주지마 别握我冰冷的双手
이제는 그만 보내야하죠 现在我必须要让你走
어떡하죠 멀어져 가네요 我该怎么做 你已经越走越远
가슴가득 눈물만 차오네요 我满腹泪水
애써 감춰 봐도 멈출수가 없어요 就算努力隐藏 还是无法停止
끝내 잡지 못한 이맘을 어떡하나요 无法停止的爱 我该怎么做

사랑했던 그 기억은 놓지 말아요 请别忘记我们曾经那样相爱
다시 웃게 해줄 다른 사람 만나도 就算遇到另外一个能令你展开笑颜的人
아픈 이별까지도 그대라 다행이죠 离别是痛苦的 但我很高兴能与你相遇
슬픈 눈물 모아서 안녕 收起悲伤的泪水 说再见

아무것도 해준게 없네요 我没有为你做过什么
못나게도 상처만 남겼네요 却只留下伤痛与你相伴
변해간 맘조차 감싸안아준 사람 你是那个无条件接受我任何感受的人
이젠 보내야할 그대를 어떡하나요 如今必须让你走 我该怎么做

숨이 멎을 만큼 아파와 눈물흘러도 即使这痛会让我停止呼吸 泪水横流
행복했던 그 기억은 놓지 말아요 请别忘记我们曾经那样幸福

닿지 못한 내사랑 이제 보내야 하죠 如今我必须将再不能让你感受的爱送走
오직 나를 웃게 할 사람 그대뿐인걸 你 是唯一的那个 可以让我微笑的人
사랑이 깊어져 마음이 아파와도 爱你越深 痛也越深

슬픈 눈물 모아서 내가 할수 있는일 收起悲伤的泪水 我唯一能做的事 就是说...
안 ~~~ 녕~~~~ 再见......

An Ode to 粉絲 (fans)

Recently, I was granted this fabulous chance to join the 粉絲團 or fan club of my pretty boy... 張根碩... (OMG... yum... yum... 8-O lol)

It's been gazillion years since the last time I was a die hard fan of someone who doesn't even have a clue about my existence.... Ya... I still remember vaguely how, decades ago, I was so crazy about da beautiful boy called George Michael.... (OK... Come on... that boy used to be really really hot... though I haven't followed up since decades... 8-O 8-X lol)

Essentially, what I have been going through is nothing but the recapitulation of teenage... I guess... (and, if teenage could be relive again... I hope... new teeth, too... 8-X 8-O lol)

The psychology of being a 粉絲 of some public kinda figure is a strange one...

It is a real one-way street... unless you are one of the "lucky few"....

You know of them... you can declare your affection towards them... you can even go crazy for them... doing things such as skipping your mid term waiting in front of their house only to see them... but they have no idea at all about your existence...

To them... you are only one of the billion 粉絲...

Yet, everyday... you search and search... for more and more information on the object of your affection... You even join in with the others... those sharing the same kind of passion towards the object of affection. (Sounds like the thing starting with the letter o... 8-O lol)

At the beginning, you might start from liking them as the character of some theatrical production... during the process of information research... You try to learn everything about him... Revisit each every trace he left...

"OMG... He is coming to Taipei!" You exclaim and you want to share your joy with the entire world.... with the same amount of excitement you had when your once-upon-a-time or real-life significant other first fly into town to pay you a visit.

At some point, you eventually come to realize... Oh... this man actually might be someone totally different from who I thought he was... based on the storyline of the drama you are drawn into.... And, you say to yourself... oops... 8-O lol

Regardless, you are in love... You make the person your boy friend, your husband, and your whatever... 

You even want to tell the entire world about this love of your life.... announce it!

You might blush speaking of him.... or not...

You even get sad, upset, and even jealous when you see your man with another woman... 

"Why does he hang around with that woman?  It is not like she is all that..." 8-O lol

Evolutionarily, it also doesn't quite make sense...

Well, the wish to find someone cute and well-to-do... a tendency beneficial to the offspring.... 

Yet, the devotion of someone who doesn't know jack about your existence... seems to be evolutionarily unfounded.... 

This is something yours relatively veteran delusional couldn't even comprehend....

Yet, so they say....

"Fans are very futile...  They might love you to death today but marry another man tomorrow."

Comparing to the object of affection who doesn't even have a clue about the existence of the individual 粉絲, I guess it is absolutely legitimate for 粉絲團 to proudly admit that... la donna e mobile?!  8-O lol



Speaking of which... seeing my husband always with another younger and cuter girl in public... I am wondering now when I will be ready to denounce him as my ex-husband.... 8-O lol

Anyways, so I decided to search and search for a readily available clip showing the overzealous fans... Unfortunately, most of the clips show only the object of affection rather than the 粉絲團.... Following is a short clip I got from the Korean drama 原來是美男(미남이시네요) showing the 粉絲 spirit or the spirits of the fans....  

An Ode to all 粉絲 in the world... regardless your object of affections...

어떡하죠 如何是好 What should I do?

어떡하죠?

如何是好? 

What should I do?

Speaking of my mind right now I guess.... 8-X

My boy friend on stage... what a pretty boy! except for the he was serenading someone else... 8-O #$%&

http://lancyparkedge.blog.sohu.com/155890853.html

I am in love

I decided yesterday that I am in love... with 張根碩..... know him through... 原来是美男

What could be even better... the man even has the same family names as me.... 8-O lol

A bit to old to be doing this kinda thing I guess... 8-O lol