Stuck at meta-psychosis - Here I Go Again

I have been stuck at the notion of meta-psychosis for many days.

Something tells me that what I have written is still crap.

I need to find more evidence for the occurrence of meta-psychosis.

As a result,







Plowing through the dungeon of my own words, wishing for the mercy of the yester-me's to lead me an easy way to whatever could be a proof of meta-psychosis.

The story of my life ... here I go again ... digging through the end of DWM one post after another.

So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.

Latuda

After switching to Solian from Seroquel for months, I am switching from Solian to Latuda again because Solian makes me cognitively even more constipated. This is no good since I have 2-3 hours available per day to use this head.

Today is the first day for me to go on Latuda. Had an early dinner and I took Latuda with my meal. Thereafter, I found myself more restless and keeping wanting to move. Guess that's the side effect.

How I hate dosage adjusting and switching drugs. sigh

Keep my fingers crossed. :-X

619 Anniversary

The day I felt free from the collapsed chair was in NYC time 1-2 o'clock in the afternoon on June 19th. Interestingly, it was already June 20th in Taipei due to the around 12 hour or so time difference.

Today, I am still a handicap with invisible disabilities and burning candles at two ends trying to kick myself kicking at large.

So, this sleepwalker with Johnny Walker Green celebrated the anniversary!

My spare tire

This spare tire of mine simply refuse to leave me along.

Someone was about to ask me how many month pregnant the other day.
I replied, "I am just fat. Not pregnant."  lol

Honestly speaking, my middle section had never gone this far. Since it started around the time I start to switch to Solian, it makes me wonder.

Pain

Rereading my psychotic model about my own psychosis. I don't know where I got the stamina to come up with all them mumble jumble. It's painful enough to read and gives me a headache.

Speaking of pain, it must be really painful to cut the ear off. Ouch.

A self-portrait of Van Gogh.

Solian

The physical side effect of my dear Seroquel was really getting on my nerves, literally, and made my body jerking, twitching, etc.

So my psychiatrist add Solian to the cocktail. After experimenting for weeks, nothing traumatically tragic took place and physical side effects weren't as bad as they were used to be. As a result, I switched to Solian and Solian only.

During the time with Solian diet only, I also had nights with a reckless body stopping me from falling asleep. Already showing. Sigh.

Regardless, this is a new med and it would take some more time to see its longer term impact and side effects.

Dream

A beautiful dream I had today--I could work like everyone else.

After waking up, I could still feel what it was like being employeed and going about with my ordinary chore.

Half awaken, that dream remained enchanting and calmed me with joy and blissfulness.

More awaken, I saw the reality--a mental and physical handicapped left with just enough to be functional for 2-3 hours a day.

The image came to my mind when Vincent threw himself on the bed, "Why can't I be like them?" :-X

Ratology Reloaded: 10-pill night

Ratology Reloaded: 10-pill night: I am sick and tired of taking 9 pills every night and I can't stand it any more. As a result, I took 10 pills with Solian the alternative...

Actually, now there are about 16 or 17 pills to take night time. I have do it methodologically so as to not get lost in the sea of Meds. :'-D