When cleaning up all them papers piling up, I couldn't find Nelson and Naren's article. So I went on searching and searching till, haphazardly, I found on my desk journals I took when I went into the psychiatric ward for the first time... while I still didn't know (or believe) I was psychotic.
An especially interesting paragraph to come across drafted on June 17th, 2001... possibly the 9th day behind the gated doors.
"I only wish everything could just stop here. Just leave me alone. I wish the taping process, doesn't matter by whom, could come to an end. I want everything to stop. It, somehow, has turned to be a soap opera of some sort. It does not deserve... I don't deserve people's attention and energy. I am just a simple person and I am but an workaholic. That's all."
An especially interesting paragraph to come across drafted on June 17th, 2001... possibly the 9th day behind the gated doors.
"I only wish everything could just stop here. Just leave me alone. I wish the taping process, doesn't matter by whom, could come to an end. I want everything to stop. It, somehow, has turned to be a soap opera of some sort. It does not deserve... I don't deserve people's attention and energy. I am just a simple person and I am but an workaholic. That's all."
Same words still applicable for yours paranoid delusional with grandiosity to use today and many days before and after today.
Except today, so I also say to myself...
"Cut that drama part already... you want drama, go watch TNT. How is it your business someone wiretapping you or not? Ain't like you are endowed in the wealth, fame, or power kinda department. Get the shxt done so that one day you can bring a penny or two in and I can spare a bit of money to do work in an AC condition. Shut the front door, get done with your work, and go make the body feel more comfortable!" (Developmental outcome? 8-O lol sigh)
"Cut that drama part already... you want drama, go watch TNT. How is it your business someone wiretapping you or not? Ain't like you are endowed in the wealth, fame, or power kinda department. Get the shxt done so that one day you can bring a penny or two in and I can spare a bit of money to do work in an AC condition. Shut the front door, get done with your work, and go make the body feel more comfortable!" (Developmental outcome? 8-O lol sigh)
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