Functional

Just when I was taking down the following passage from the book "Madness"...

"I sit down at my desk to work. I'm not writing well, but I'm only writing for myself. This is to make me feel functional, a feeling I lost during those years of total disability, so that at the end of the day I can feel good about the fact that the day did not pass me by." P. 243

No better way to put it... the pursuit of functionality...

This voice rose from sort of the center of my head...

"I envy you. You feel so settled." 8-O

So... my delusional and hallucinational self/selves are envious of this useless me? 8-O lol oops...