Walk

Just took another walk...

Something told me to take the riverside park instead...

So I walked.... in a state... limited were thoughts...

I did have thoughts...

I did have words spoken in my head...

I did sense them never-ending gerne of feelings... love, sadness, hurt.... which were released and forgotten...

You feel love... loving feelings... you thought... loving feelings....

You feel sadness... sadness... you came up with the label... sad feelings...

You feel many other things or perhaps not too many.... you labeled and be in the dasein...

When things change, you find yourself in, simply, an alternative dasein....

Then, you realised... the thoughts... the words themselves... dasein...

And you kept on moving on or life moves on carrying you with the flow... let daseins manifest themselves... unfolding like a stream of running water...

And... you walked on... walked on down Broadway...

You walked on like anyone else...

You even ponder what is in their head at times... wonder whether how you are is the normal way they feel...

You stopped at the red light...

You jaywalked when no traffic...

You went into shops and finally made some purchase...

You kept on walking on while yawning at points...

Then, you are almost home...

This voice inside your heart... relative to the region that is the central point of your chest.... this voice like many others that have emerged so far... repeating itself... in its own rythem....

The voice called... "Love... love... love... love......"

All of a sudden, you felt awake...

It was as if you have just waken up... from a trace... (although I don't really know what it means to be in a trace but it surely sounds nice....) 8-O lol

So you walked into the supermarket, grabbing some fruit and vegi, you proceeded to the casher, and, you thought to yourself...

Sleep walk....

Was that sleep walk?

Where did them hours of time go?

On your way back home... crossing the street... you felt even more awake... as if you have just came out of a hypnotised state....

You think to yourself... "I am some kind of nuts."

You think again... "I am already nuts but this is even more aberrant if not abnormal...."

Then, you ponder to yourself... Am I really awake this round for sure?? What does it mean... anyways... for sure? 8-O 8-X

At the same time, you brought this question to thyself... Does it seem like my delusional system has gotten stronger? Yet, how would be valid and reliable measure?

You also wonder... Could it be an alternative outlet for my the delusional self?

And, you stop.

And, you thought of the voice you heard repeatedly by pier 1.... "Stop fighting... stop fighting... stop fighting..."

And, it is your heart's desire for more interpretations but you stop.