Love attacks

Just came out from this love attack... 8-O lol sigh

It is a state within which you feel the phenomena of love...

The reason why it is an attack is because it takes all your cognitive processing away and you are overcome by the feeling of love...

It comes over...

It takes over... your mind and your body...

It is as if there is something wrong with the firing of your neurons... and perhaps that's the only rationale to go by with...

This sensation that something grows from your heart and spreads.... spreading into each every cell of yours... saturating them with this thing coded as love....

It feels beautiful... so beautiful that it makes you feel like to weep...

Then, you feel as if you were going to have an heart attack...

It comes at you and gives you the being hit by a truck kind of feeling...

You feel the heaviness on your chest, you feel as if you are running short of breath and you feel as if you were going to pass out...

Then, it morphs again... and you might go through another iteration of something else or the same thing...

You can't control it...

You can't defy it...

You can't focus on anything else...

You simply surrender to it... because something tells you that it ain't gonna do you any help fighting it anyways....

Perhaps, all that you might be left with is the sufficient amount of cognitive capacity to Mafia War... clicking away semi-aimlessly.... trying to gain more experiences so as to level up while you no longer have any idea why you shall continue to level up... Sort of like a question non-mafia war players ask me... "What is the purpose?" 8-O lol sigh

And, you hold all judgement and interpretations as much as you could.... you stay as an observer... as if you were simply an observer witnessing anything else in life...

You do it for a reason...

Like what my prof said in class last Monday... "Too many possibilities makes your head explode." 8-O lol

The goal... to learn to cease building theories on them simply phenomena...

Finally.... it ceases...

At times, you feel you have a choice... you have a choice to choose a naming other than love....

With that naming, you might be able to bring forth a totally different gerne of phenomena.... such as fear and horror... However, since I have not gone on that track and would absolutely refrain myself from choosing that path if possible, can't tell you whether this theory holds true.... 8-O lol

At least, it is better than attacks dominated by fear and horrors.... when love attacks.... 8-O lol sigh

And, your though so far reminds you of the here I go again phenomena.... and you are sort of amazed... no longer do you need to enter in da here I go again.... The naming itself... has it all represented.... no longer do you need to go back in there again.... and, with wishful thinking... never again... for now... thank God for the creation of hypertexts so that you do see the link and could access it except for you don't have to go back to its contents.... 8-O lol

And, I guess... the most important part of it... you come out and you look at yourself... you ponder... has my delusional system become stronger or not?

Based on your self-assessment and although you ain't quite sure how valid and reliable the measure is... you thought... ain't quite like all that different.... although part of you says... how true and how real?