He then sent me to do an MRI on my right knee...
It happened again...
During the procedure.... I started feeling pain on my knees and other parts of the body...
At certain point, it felt as if the cells all over the body were about to explode and extremely uncomfortable...
In any case, the scan was done, I got my films and walked out of the clinic....
Again, both my knees and body were not happy and I limped around like a big bad bug.... one step at a time... tried to move forward....
At the earlier part of the day and later part of the afternoon, the problem was primarily concerning movements with pains manageable...
At some point and even later in the afternoon, I started feeling the nerve pain to grow....
It started as the sparkles along your spine...
You feel it...
You cope with it...
In no time, you realise that the pain has taken its own life and taken a toll on you.... locked down all capacities sparing you one and only one task to perform...
Thereafter, I realised that this was actually very much similar to how the pain had emerged the day of my accident on June 2007...
Thereafter, I realised that this was actually very much similar to how the pain had emerged the day of my accident on June 2007...
Despite the fact that I hate taking pain meds, I had to ask for pain killers to get some relief from it.
They say that it is impossible to get pain during or after MRI scans....
They say that the pain you get might have something to do with your being anxious or being claustrophobic except for the majority part of my body was on the outside and only knees in the cylinder...
They say there ain't no scientific reasons about it.... what occurs again and again to me...
I gladly accept their opinion except for... as I was struggling to get to the office after the scan.... I can't help asking this question again and again....
I am dragging my body trying to move forward...
I do need to stop every other steps...
I am really here observing what is going on with my body and I assume other people could see it as well....
I am in this state and I am "being here"... Yet, they say there ain't no reason such shall occur.... thus, it ain't possible for such state to exist.... thus... I can't be here?! (OMG... So based on this reasoning... I exist not.... 8-O lol sigh)
Yet, there ain't no scientific explanation to the state I am in....
Scientific minded experts.... how could it be so?
Can somebody tell me? How could it be so?
I will work on recovery again and I possibly will use my cane for tomorrow...
Yet, all that I have to go through.... unfounded, unscientific and unexplainable... How could it be so?
In any case, in case you are another confused soul not understanding why you experience intensified pain and disability.... and, in case, you have tried all your might to figure out whether there exist someone else on this planet with similar experiences....
Like how the song goes as well as the curious dasein it tries to describe... I can't tell you why....
I can only tell you.... you are not alone.... that's why there are things called outlier analysis, I guess.... 8-O lol sigh
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