Digging out

That thing called being depressed could make you feel low in energy level and more irritable.

The attempt to dig oneself out of that black hole of depression makes one even more tiring and vice versa.

When having a smoke, I had this imagery in my mind that I am six feet under with a shuffle... keep on digging upwards trying to see when I eventually could get back to see the beautiful sunlight.

I guess it makes me feel tired but I know I will see the light. At the same time, I know I will eventually see the light but still I feel tired.