Monday, October 5, 2009

Strange

For all these times, something has been pushing me aside from doing more reading and working on the study proposal (don't you love this "the neighbors' dog tell me to do it" kind of excuse? lol)

However, today, it is as if something sat me down, kept my head simple and focus... addressing one required point at a time... though still using my blogging kind of writing style...

So I sat down and typed... and continue to do so....

Still have about 2 hours to finish up with this drafty draft proposal.... and I think I could make it....

Why couldn't I do it earlier on?

Why has there been this something has been pushing me away from it?

Why could I, today, sit down and without much thinking... moving along trying to get it done?

Wouldn't it be nice if I could have started it earlier on? Yet, as long as I finally could start doing it and I have a feeling that I could at least getting the basics covered and done by 7:00 PM.

At the same time, it feels as if... again... I am only the typist....

I have done this thing called not quite sure where things come out from my mouth when blogging...

This might be the first time when I am typing things out while not quite sure how I get the academic kind of writing out sort of experiences....

Man... speaking of dissociation.... dissociation....

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